Weekend with mom

I stayed at my mom's new place this weekend. I find new places to be fairly easy diet wise because new place means new eating habbits in that place. So it was more than easy to stick to my diet. I mainly ate pineapple, low fat yoghort and egg whites. I survived with bottles of diet coke and black coffee.

It's hard being around mom. She now weighs about 43 kilos and looks pretty bad. Anorectic.
She eats the same things every day, which means there's no weight gain. She is very fragile, but seems a lot happier now that she's back to work and everything. I love her so much and just want her to be okay.

On the other hand it makes the whole dieting thing sort of sad, being around her. Seeing what it can lead to. Seeing her struggle. Not that I still don't wanna lose weight, believe me I want and will, but I don't want to be as sick as her.

Anyways the weekend was beautiful. New beautiful place, beautiful diet and always beautiful mom, no matter what she weighs.

Still feels like nothing can stop me from reaching my goal this time. It's been more than two weeks and no bad days. Not one bad day. I will keep going.

Love, Maria